wiggles are on..GRRR..u get mail..LOL

gawd those fools!!!...hate dat damn show...eva seen a chinese austrailian?..i don't get it...LOL...n those damn songs,lol....grrrrr...ok i'm done ...i have tim blarin..cakie's givin me da evil eye..."like um hello?...woman?...i'm listenin to hot potato..."...LOL...

i'm figurin i'll need a roll of bounty by da time i get done, i have like 12 songs lined up...lol...when i think bout writin coopy mail..it's like instant ...this is alotta typin,lol...imma get carpel tunnel i swear, but when i have tim its motivation..(contrary to those of ya dat think imma fast typer,lol...come on peeps imma one handed typer...wheres da otha..one neva knows...hehehe ...oh hell those of ya dat know me know its prolly playin wiff muh hair, LOL...)...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ok...well i just wanna say real quick...FURK!!!...i'm makin a quiche fer dinner t'nite..first fer coopy n i fergot da damn heavy cream so i'm thinkin i betta go get some afta spawn class......spawn class...gawd, i still think i have rocks in muh head fer volunteerin..last week was jus crazy...seems kindergarten class has an ant problem too n cakie freaked da furk out..she was clingin to me, there was one by our "center"/table...adrianna squashed it but dat wasn't good nuff fer cakie...she was freakin bout da dead ant carcass under da table......lol...so morgan (cute lil thang)...gets up, picks up da damn thing n takes it to da trash can...LMAO..cakie was in shock i swear, lmaoooo...all was fine then...then i'm noticin timmy walkin round' handin out lil pieces of paper to all da kids...he gives me one, its a lil post it note he scribbled on, n says..."here mom its yer ticket fer kadies party..."......i joked to his teacher iffen all these kids showed up i was definitely committin muhself, lmao..i was glad to see timmy interractin tho ...

thursday night we had some family decide to show up univited....this would be his side of da family, aunt n uncle, uncle who i swear looks jus like jimmy buffett...i saw him n jus broke out in a chorus of its five o'clock somewhere ...they were up from one of them there carolinas () n thursday was da only evenin they had free to visit, they're timmys godparents....motherlesbianinlaw came ova to visit too, so by da time everyone had left da kids were up bout an hour past bedtime n i was jus itchin to get em there,lol...oh n dat same night...da tooth fairy forgot to come AGAIN (we suck, lmao)..poor chris got up lookin fer his money n nuffin...movie star had da boys get breakfast then walked into their room n strategicly placed a bill, n rigged sumfin to fall....he goes back out n da thing falls..(mind you i'm a slack ass n i'm not even up yet,lmao)...movie star acts shocked n said wuts dat, the boys scared but excited, movie star says maybe its the tooth fairy, n they dash off...they go in n theres the money, so that was a big thrill them thinkin they heard "her"..LOL...i woulda jus waited til i remember in a few weeks, LMAO

friday night was lisas shower so marketin was put on hold til sat. night...cakie n i got all dolled up n head out..n as we go out da door she says bye to timmy (jus timmy )...we get to da hall, n instantly cakies attatched to muh side cuz theres like a roomful of 60 people...mom bein da goofy hostess she's bein, takes us around to every damn table..tells me she was gonna introduce me to people i dunno (fruits relatives)...bout 15 tables later n people dat i've known fer 28 years we finally get to sit down ...we eat dinner...which was exactly da same meal we ate 8 years ago at muh shower ...i keep tellin mom change is good, lol.....then we had cake, not nearly surgary enuff but not bad, i showed off pics of da boys...then it was present time..i had garbage duty , lmao...cakie had da bag fer da bows, lol...i swear to da almighty lord..it took us 2 hours to get thru da gifts..muh gawd, lol...i had da video camera pointed at us, n i kept pullin da string tighter on muh shirt cuz lisa kept tellin me she was seein boobage, lmao..i tilted da chair n we continued...i kept makin cracks like.."hey mom?..when are they servin breakfast?.."..LOL..i swear da fruits family thinks imma nutcase, but they were crackin up,lol...she got jus bout everything she's gonna need...n as soon as she was done i said muh goodbyes n we were off...got home to a messy house n bitched, lol...movie stars like..."have a bad night?"..i said "nope jus didn't expect to come home n see it messier than when yer mom watches da kids"...he's like "it's 4 minutes of cleanin"...i'm like "oh?..4 minutes, hmm that must take too much time out from layin on da couch.."...he went to bed, LOL...muh point was made, lol...n he took his clothes he'd strewn about da floor w/ him, lmao...

saturday we took a trip to wal-mart cuz da boys were whinin bout their shoes not fittin so we shut em up, lol...got lisa a birthday card with two naked butts on da front, lmao..the boys were crackin up in da aisle...then comin home we hit da oriental run nail place n i got her a gift certificate fer there so she can do sumfin fer herself...her birthday was kinda put off this year, hmm wonder why?..lol...then motherlesbianinlaw came after work n we were off to dinner...dad was treatin, of course,lol...so we had dinner, some chick was walkin round table to table askin if they wanted to hear a song..(opera singin )...lisa n i were cringin n said iffen she came ova we didn't wanna hear her, dad even chimed in "i'll give her $5 not to sing"..LOL...dad had jus come from da VFW n he was tanked so in a very chipper mood, lol...she gets to our table...asks if we'd like a song...gary says..."sure we would"... BASTARD...LOL...when she was done mom aked her a cpl questions n gave her a tip n she was off...i shot him a look...LOL...i was goin from wine to mixed drinks so i figured grocery shoppin would be interestin...lol..but i was fine by da time we got there..when we were done it was back to da ranch..got da brats to bed n hellificanremember wut happened next but it was prolly sex, LOL...

sunday, oh dats right...motherlesbianinlaw took alex n chris overnight sat. night so da house was half quiet...i made breakfast, n hubby went outside n cut back all da lilac trees on da left of da house...right side he did last year...it was buggin him n he wanted to do em b4 cakies party on da 8th...i wanted him to do it next weekend but..its dat whole iffen he gets it in his mind thing nuffin stops him thing...bastard,lol...so now da house is exposed on da one side, lmao...i have clear view into muh neigbors pool now too ...but da bad thing...the whole back yard is COVERED w/ branches n shit...its gonna be in da 70's lata this week n where da furk am i gonna lay out?...GRRRRRR...he can't move em til da weekend cuz he needs to rent a wood chipper, yay...furkin grrrr...i may hafta go out in da driveway...last time i did dat tho da UPS man got a show...

then sunday night was da concert...ya see, friday mornin da movie star calls me n asks me iffen i could get a sitter fer sunday night..i'm like uh oh who died?.....figurin i hadda wake to go to...lol...he's like i just got 10th row fer alan jackson..."no shit"..lol....i'm like yeah i can, lol..i called lisa n begged her, tellin her it'd be cake since an hour after she got here theyd go to bed...she was sold,lol...lisa got to da house n i gave her da routine rundown as hubby changed...then he calls me to da bedroom door..says.."ya realize iffen yer jeans were longer i could wear em"...n he's modelin...i'm like "huh?"...he thought my jeans were his n put em on..LOL..too short..he says "does this mean i'm da same size as u?.."..LOL..when he got his on n came up lisa was crackin up..said "so ya like wearin victoria secret jeans?"..he says "hell yeah, i wuz feelin sexy there fer a minute.." GAWD...LMAO..we left fer da concert bout an hour ahead of time...sold out show we hit da traffic right away.....grabbed da first parkin lot we could (2 longgg city blocks away from da arena)...lol...then started trekkin off towards da arena...now i gotta add its 50 degrees, pourin rain..n i'm walkin da city streets in a tank top ...i'm so not da brightest crayon in da box...but i wasn't wearin a coat cuz i woulda hadda take it off n hang it on da chair n all dat chit, lmao..we find our seats, n omg we had great seats...i was feelin really young tho cuz their fan base is like almost geriatric stage...LOL..martina sang her ass off as usual...n alan was good..i'm not usually a fan of blond men...LOL...da movie star n i argued ova whether martina is hot er' not...he said well you don't like her cuz you like yer women blond.....good point,lol...it was a great show tho, n fer free, i wasn't complainin...well i did add..."why can't u get me these seats fer tim?..this is prime ass grabbin territory!!"...LMAO..he rolled his eyes, he can't win,lol...

damn...ya'll realize since i've started typin...we've watched da wiggles, dat pb n j otter thing (i think), n now we're onto dat extremely annoyin rollie pollie ollie ..lol...

on tap fer dis week..ummm spawn class t'day, then chris is goin to his friend jacobs..alex i think is goin to alexs' house (confusin huh?..lol)...i'm goin to get cream..LOL...(pervs!)...ummm then da rest of da week is quiet..this weekend is all cleanin n shit fer cakies party a week from saturday, we're cleanin da playroom porch off, rearrangin da livin room, n i'm willin to bet muh life da movie star is gonna lay da wood floor fer da kitchen renovatin project,lol...i say this cuz he has da quotes n was measurin da floor on sunday...LOL...hey i'm all fer it...after going to da rich folks house last weekend i'm all about redo'in everything n makin da house look better, LOL...i'm even lookin into gettin crafty wiff muh redocoratin self...move ova martha stewart, LOL...so dats bout all fer now i'm thinkin...i'll be here n there, so i'll catch ya's all in da room or in da trees..hehehe...l8ters t8ters...

coopy

another week...i promise no need 4 kleenex...lol..

i promise...no kleenex...thanks everyone for the kind words throughout the week......i really do feel that you are all like family..n it was nice hearing that even this crazy lil stressed out ny chick could touch so many of ya(although some i'd really like to touch in a whole other light...hehehe)...muahhhhsss n gropes (to a few of ya)...

as i sit here i'm on fire, lol...tannin season has begun...today made it to 91 degress, i was like woohooo sun, i gotta get crackin,lol..yes folks iffen da sun is shinin coopy will be out in it...pendin her lil ducklings allow dat is...i say this cuz well, take t'day fer instance...was all good we get outside, towels are down, i'm oiled up (PERVS!!!, LOL), n i get all happy in da sun (no sry, not DAT happy, kids are present!!!), i layed out fer bout oh 30 minutes...n katie n timmy start really freakin out bout da bug situation, grrrr...these kids, (n yes smartasses i know its muh fault) they are afraid of EVERY bug...cakie screams "spider spider" all over...it could be an ant..to her its a spider n very unacceptable...timmy will squash ants but he's like me with bees...i'm ok outside layin down, just freak everywhere else,lol...so they were whinin, cryin, complainin...i'm gettin good sun, i'm seein red, lol..n i was pissed, i'm tellin em to sit on da picnic table, n they do, n just stare...i was like fine,lol...ya wanna go in?.."yes"...ok naptime,lol...so we go in n after 30 sunless minutes they were out n i had an hour til the older boys bus came...so out i went, n stayed out fer 45 minutes, then came in n changed n got the boys...pondered going back but the lil ones got up n weren't for it,lol...so the older boys went out n i folded about a gazillion clothes i had put off fer as long as i could...but holy cripes,lol...i'm feelin dat sun now,lol...just got back from a candle party (yes another, lol) n i changed in da livin room n i'm like "look i have lines"...movie star is like..."well ummm yes you do"...then i said sumfin i can't say here cuz i have a rep to protect,lol...but his response was "yup i'll slap dat red skin silly"......hasn't happened yet,lol....i'm waitin,lol...

so...this past week was spring recess at coopys house......it was crazy, routine was all furked come 8 a.m monday mornin...easter candy was used as a bribing n bargainin tool to keep muh sanity fer much of da week...1 gripe..THAT FURKIN EASTER GRASS!!!!...everywhere , no matter how many times ya vacumn it turns up in the same places ya just vacumned not 2 minutes later, grrrrrrrrrrr, lol....on wednesday, motherlesbianinlaw n "casey" came n took alex n chris for a day long excursion...not too bad, at least i had 1 routine day...n friday muh aunt came n took alex n chris bowling..she was back within 3 hours.., take em longer geez,lmao...they had fun tho...lol

well folks, tuesday night i did it, lol...i got all courageous n shit n decided while i was feelin froggy that we'd color da hair darker...i had already picked muh color...(yes muh grease monkey hubby does muh hair, well when i'm not in da mood fer waitin on mom,lol...mom has her hands fun waitin on da 2 babies to move into her house )...so after dinner we did it...2 minutes wiff da solution on i'm like "hows it look?"...he says..."well its definitely not blond anymore"..."its only been 2 furkin minutes!!!!"...."uhhuh" he says n is crackin up...then timmy runs past me wheelin his "red car" in warp speed..catches the hair, n screams.."alex chris *crackin da hell up really loud*..look at moms hairs!!!!".yes garys crackin up,lol.....gawd i'm feelin good...then chris comes in while i'm still waitin fer it to set, n he says "mom its ORANGE!!"...me=...gary=...bastard, lmao...after i rinsed it n wimpered as i caught the first glimpse..i dryed it n styled it...hubby likes, i wasn't repulsed...i go in to say "the word" (don't ask!) to the boys n alex says.."nice hair mom n smiled"..lol...but all in all it got rave reviews...they finally told me they liked it better than the "yellow",lol...furkin kids,lol..i really like it tho, n it'll look really good with dat purple dress i gotta wear,lol...i jus cannot figure out da color, its like blond, red, n brown..hubbys friends were over sunday n his friend rich (he wants me,lol...)...he says "weren't you blond?"..i said.."i wuz"...he says.."whats that?..."...i'm like "hellifiknow"...n he says "i'll call it cinnamon"...uhhuh sure rich do as ya please, lol...goof...in all honestly its caramel sumfin,lol...anywho...

friday night, grocery night,lol...motherlesbianinlaw was late, damn her,lol...n we hadda buncha stops to make...got cakie a tricycle fer her birfday from target...then we went n got her a 14 karat gold bangle bracelet,lol....after we got her birfday squared away hubby decided we hadda stop to eat, so we stopped at da greek diner (GREEK DINER PICKLES RULE!!!)..LOL..we're sitin down waitin for our order n bs'in..n one of the owners er' wutever comes up n asks hubby iffen he wore a hat in n what he drives...hubbys like "umm no...why?"...the guys like "oh i saw a cpl that looked like you that came in a mini...(car i'm assumin,lol)...hubbys like "nope, we came in the yellow truck"...(dimitri???...movie star says all greeks are named dimitri,lol)...looks out da window n says.."nice", n walks away.....WEIRD...then as we overhear him talkin to a cpl ladys about their cell phones movie star looks at me n says "i got it"...i'm like "wut?"...he says "listen to him, he sounds exactly like mickey mouse"...LOL...ya know wut...he could be THE mickey mouse voice,LOL...it was hilarious,lol..he's over there sayin.."you like team mobile?"..n garys across from me imitatin him sayin "hello boys n girls"..."minnie mouse has team mobile"...i was laffin,lol...we skipped dessert i figured goin to da store i'd grab sumfin...i did i grabbed caramel brownie frozen yogurt...n when we got home i had some...omg it tasted like pottin soil...LOL..which distressed gary thinkin i'm samplin the flowers' soil....LOL..for the record, that is what i imagine potting soil to taste like, LMAO...

saturday, i wasn't feelin like cookin so i asked da kids iffen they wanted to go to da chinese buffett, always a hit,lol...i informed hubby n we were off..(after muh lifetime movie wuz done tyvm,lol)...it wasn't crowded, woohooo...so we got right in, got food n sat down...as the kids ate their sundaes after dinner i'm sittin there on da end n da chinese chick comes up n takes muh plate...i wuz kinda angled inward, like lookin down da table..when she came up, holy shit i screamed n jumped...LMAO...poor chris was right next to me, he almost chocked on his beef teriyaki stick, lmao...he was crackin up...too funny...timmy didn't scream "hey lady", i did not step in any jello...it was good, mellow even..they timmy starts swingin his package of crushed saltine crackers all over in da air over his head....movie star is right across from him givin him da evil eye n tellin him to stop, lol...which timmy kept up..until...the damn package busted open n cracker particles were winged all over a 5 foot radius, LMAO...i was dyin, lol...timmy was smirkin,lol..hubby jus put his head down,lol...thank goodness they quarantined us, lol...no one around to get hit w/ flyin crackers,lol..i think they were glad to see us leave,lol...we hit da video store then motherlesbianinlaws fer a quick visit...long enuff to crack up at dat picture of her n "casey" w/ dat wax statue of Nick Cage, LMAO...back at da ranch, we put the kiddies to bed then watched the fighting temptations...blah...after dat hubby goes in to da bathroom, then comes right back out n looks at me kinda funny..says.."do we own any lotions that do NOT smell like food?..."...i'm laughin, lol...i'm like lemme check...lol...closest i could find was dreamsicle...lol...orangy tho, lmao...he was like whatever,lol...sex wuz good after dat tho ...in fact i've had so much sex in da past week its like its goin outta style, lmao...sorry ...its good tho,lol..

sunday...after a slow start to our day we set off to CHEZ STEPHENS...LOL..ok lil background..stephen is da friend dat only calls when he needs sumfin, richer than god, n married to helen (whom he locked in a closet for two hours once..) (how fucked up is dat?...i woulda beat da furkin life outta him wiff large hard things,lol)...anywho, after pats funeral it seems he got a guilty conscience n invited us over for the day n dinner...we stopped n got dessert then set off to find his 300 grand house....i was droolin...lol...all in all it was an awesome day, kids played together n had a blast..cakie was callin steve dad n helen mom, kinda cute til they said they were keepin her n cakie agreed, lol.....they're even comin to cakie birfday party..imagine dat,lol..miracles do happen peeps,lol...was fun minglin wiff da rich folks, but ever since sunday i've been gettin "ideas" bout wut we can do around ours, LOL...

tomorrow i go back to learnin centers...*mumbles incoherently*...after a week without i don't wanna go back,lol...but timmy n cakie get out...n chris has me in class fer an hour...i'll go ..uhhuh really missed those kids......this friday is lisas baby shower...missin muh grocery night...hubby will hafta go alone,lol...cakie was invited too so its a girls night out, n we got lisa a jazzed up swing so its all ready to go...n in a lil less than 3 weeks its muh lil cakies birfday...i sent out da invites, oh n i was informed saturday nigt when i told motherlesbianinlaw of da date, dat it falls on tulip festival day ...wutdafurkeva...n she says to "casey"..."whenever theres a party it falls on some festival day"...furkin bite me i felt like sayin...i'm not about to check her social calendar,lol...she either comes er' doesn't ...LOL...aren't i sweet?...lol...

ok peeps i'm one exhausticated person, well maybe after a lil fornication....but not defication...oh my i'm gettin silly wiff muhself,lol...sry,lol...one last thing...things i think about...why did muh neighbor name one of his boys JR n his other dominick junior......weird..ohhhhhh n why does muh other neighbor down da street feel da need to house a dead wise potato chip truck on his front lawn?...decoration?......n why does he have 3 ducks attatched to da hood of his ryder truck he drives ...things dat just make me wanna say..WUT DA FURK!!!!...LOL...theres more i'm always thinkin,lol..next time...LOL...til then, keep smilin...kisses n hugzz...

yer coopy

i refuse to proofread so bite me, LOL...

what don't kill us makes us strong...carry on...

well here i am, sittin down to write coopy mail...still the same coopy on the outside but a very different coopy on the inside...my life is still as chaotic as ever, i still wanna pull out my hair by evening yet now at the end of the day i don't see it as "omg thank god its bedtime those friggin kids drove me crazy"...it's more.."thank you god for blessing me with the gift of another day with the people i love the most..."...as nuts as i get, as close to pickin up the phone n committin myself just for peace n quiet prayin i don't have to hear another "mommy he's bothering us"...it's all totally worth it......why so different?...

wednesday night i sat here at the pc, after the kids went to bed, hubby knowing i'd be sittin here took his place on the couch briefly before going to bed by himself, i had not a care in the world..i'm shoppin online for accessories for the wedding and i was in a box or two...then i went to bed...at 3:30 A.M. we received the phone call we both had been hoping would never come...our friend had lost his battle with cancer 15 minutes before...this friend was not only a friend but a brother of a good 19 years to my hubby, my kids favorite "uncle", n my favorite friend...the one who would always be here every weekend so he could see the kids n gary could tinker with his prized possession..his truck, that they spent all last summer raising, n puttin the engine in n painting white w/ red flames on it...the one who when timmy would say "dad" pat would chime right up with.."what i'm right here"..n everyone would laugh..it was absolutely no secret i loved him to death, n he loved me n the kids..timmy n cakie especially cuz he'd be the one to rush over n sit w/ em when gary n i had to rush the others here n there for ear infections n what not...in his eyes timmy could do absolutely no wrong, the kid was a menace n he loved it, n katie was his lil princess...me, lol...i was the one he gave shit too..never enough cupcake cones for him when he came over after i had made the class cones, called me "the house gnome" as i stood inside the house behind the screen door all summer long peekin out now n then, he gave me shit constantly for never leavin the house, said i thought i'd melt if i crossed the end of the driveway, i can still hear him every weekend sittin on our couch when the kids would say mommy i need another drink..he'd chime in "mommy breathes all week long, she has the weekends off...ask daddy", always givin me shit..n the icing on the cake..when he found out i absolutely LOATHE being called "Dar", well of course it became the ONLY thing he'd call me from that point on (well until the house gnome crack,lol).......3 years ago at age 30 he found out he had skin cancer (a large growth he never had checked on account of lack of proper insurance on top of just being a procrastinating male)...he underwent intensive chemo n radiation, traveled all over, n fought so hard...within the past couple months it spread really fast n fierce, he couldn't walk anymore n without being able to drive he lost his will...but hung in there..we got the kids over about 3 weeks ago n we all hugged him n kissed him...he made it to his 33 birthday, he had cake with his dad on his dads birthday, n had his older brother set up one last "date" w/ his wife where he recreated a real date with her by word of mouth n then handed her a locket w/ his picture enclosed n asked her to marry him...2:30 the next morning he looked at his brother n told him he wanted to go to dana farber to die..his younger brother told him to "get out of here, he didn't need this anymore"...n 45 minutes later w/ both brothers at his side he passed away...i knew as soon as gary answered the phone that was what happened..i lost it siliently n gary closed up..i remember staring out the bedroom window laying in bed thinking n almost like a revelation..the sun still shines no matter what, we lost someone so close to us 2 hours ago n here the sun is shining...gary had the boys go to school n he went to work...he decided we'd tell the kids that night, the older boys knew what was going on but not when, i think they held out hope...i spent all day wondering, reflecting, worrying, n grieving...i know he knew it was right, n that the pain was gone..but ours was just starting...i took it upon myself to make mention to timmy n cakie who had been seeing me break down, i told them that uncle pat loves them very much n that he is their angel now.....its good enough for them...when gary got home it was just a somber mood, we hardly talked as usual...he told alex n chris..chris lost it...he would sit n be fine, then be breaking down n sobbing the next minute...broke my heart...this is their first death of someone so close...that night gary continued to close up, n i didn't pry, he went to bed, n then to work the next morning...i was informed there was a private wake friday night then the service sat. so i set off to line up sitters...

i'm probably rippin your hearts out n i am sorry for that, but it's part of the life of coopy, n in turn i feel its my tribute n in a sense its relieving...

friday night, we got dressed (imagine that i had to iron)...n with motherlesbianinlaw we left for the funeral home...upon entrance of this "private" service (i think only JFK had more people)...all the friends were there, we signed in n starred at a picture collage of pat, killed me i had to move...then we reached his oldest brother who just grabbed me n made me feel exactly like i needed to..i was comforted, he told me he was happy again, he was drivin around again...then i moved to his younger brother who hugged me n said "pat wanted me to tell you...thanks for coming..Dar"...i laughed n cried at the same time, such a shit..lol..then to his dad, always a doll, n his mom who i just held for awhile...then i moved over to his wife n just hugged her as tight as i could, no words...after that we sat in the back n just talked to everyone...n everything is in slow motion...as you're sitting there you overhear two people n one says.."nice to meet you"..n i remember thinking is it really so nice?...motherlesbianinlaw left, n we went from inside to outside (the flowers were killin hubby...that n about 5 different old lady perfumes)...back inside hubbys general manager came up to him n hugged him n saw me n said "oh i didn't even see ya there, ya blend.".i'm like "gee thx, i'd hope i stand out i'm better lookin.."...he says..."ya got that right sister, let me know when yer done w/ him"...those around us laffed, it was alot of jokes, just as pat would have it...after we somberly went n did our grocery shoppin..the kids wouldn't let us come home without little debbie cakes, n various other must haves,lol...knowing the hard day we had in front of us, we went to bed together n it had different meaning...we changed that night...saturday morning we got up n got the house ready for my mom who was watching the kids til the shift change when motherlesbianinlaw would take over after the funeral...we held the kids tight then got dressed..mom came w/ pies in hand for easter 'will you put these someplace safe"......i know in garys mind he thought fer a split second "yeah bend over"..but i took em n put em away n then showed her where a few things were...it came that time...gary looked at me n said ya ready?...n i looked at him n said..no, i don't want to...i almost lost it but pulled out of it n grabbin his hand we left...we got to the cemetary n i left my coat in the truck..BAD idea wearin a lil white shirt n long skirt..(nope, i went commando,lol)...we hugged the guys again n got our flowers...right before the service the truck drove up..just hearing that truck was enough for me to totally lose it..he was driven 1 last time in his truck..(btw folks don't go thinkin there was no hearse on account of me,lol..(see i still have it)...he was cremated n this was the only was the boys would have it (he also has his truck keys, his lighter n a pack of cigarettes w/ him)...during the serivice i couldn't stop the tears, i was a mess, no friggin kleenex either, i used my sleeve (now covered in cover up n snot,lol)...after the service we laid our flowers around him, i took garys hand again n i felt as tho i was holding him up...gary walked away after n i followed n just hugged him as he finally let it go...his mom n i w/ him just hugged....then others came to us n it was just a hug fest, all these big burly strong guys just lettin it go...n his brother cracked.."look at what he's doing...""especially gettin robbie in a suit"...(robbie is known as the slob of the group),lol....jokes were needed...then his two brothers with his wife in the middle climbed into his truck...then layin on the airhorn they drove away...(his wife hated the truck for the shear fact she hated climbin into it)....his younger brother is taking the truck..they cannot see a stranger buying it n rdriving it, it was his favorite thing his brother would tell ya he loved that truck more than his wife,lol n hearing how chris has taken this hard said he'll be over within the week to take chris out for a long ride in it possibly giving it to him when he's 16 after he's had 3 hernia operations from the shocks,lol.......we stopped home briefly to change then it was off to a bar where everyone was gathering...many drinks later n lots of bonding we came back home...gary was tanked n for once i didn't care...i knew coloring easter eggs would be interesting but i didn't care...gary boiled the eggs then took the kids outside..i changed n got dinner ready...night went pretty smoothly, we colored the eggs n then after the kids went to bed the easter bunny came, lol...hid the baskets n then passed out on the couch...i had no will to get on here so i went to bed, i was exhausted...

sunday mornin...kids were up before us, timmys basket was left in plain sight...so when gary came up he said...they were all sittin on the couch all quiet, alex said, "timmys basket is right there, can we look fo ours?"...gary said yes...bam, magically then went right to where their baskets where hidden, LOL...when i came up i overheard that they had found them 3 times b4 dad came up,lol...friggin kids, lol...i swear over the baby monitor i hear timmy goin "mmmm"...so i know they were samplin...lol...after breakfast my aunt stopped by, then motherlesbianinlaw came over to take the kids out for an egg hunt..about 3 mom, n gram, n lisa came over n it was pretty quiet..no fightin, no hard words, nuttin...then dad came n shortly after we sat down for dinner...(ham !!!)...by this time ya must know the kids are all sugared up, bouncin off the walls...then as they come down they are ridin the "whine wave" major...we had more drama goin on at our house than at julliard...thank god my family is known for "eattin n runnin"...after dessert they took off n we bathed the drama kings n queen n put em to bed...then gary n i took some time to find each other again...ya really see exactly whats in front of ya, n nothing else matters...i'm really one hell of a lucky woman.i may not have everything but what i have is more than most n i have an amazing man at my side...n i'm findin something that was buried, n its amazing seeing it n feeling it all again...n i guess i have pat to thank for that......he knew i wasn't happy, n i remember him last summer telling me he didn't let a day pass w/out telling his wife he loved her..last summer i just said "yeah well thats not us"...now it's me...i'm planning a much needed lil getaway for us this summer, n he's agreed..who woulda thunk?...lol..i have an angel in my corner too now...n i know he's smilin down on me...snickerin n callin me "Dar" too...that shit,lol....

hug yer kids tight n make sure ya tell everyone ya love just how important they are, we aren't here for long......as for me, well it's gonna be a longggggggg vacation week w/ all 4 home, but i have relief dates lined up throughout the week for breathers, one doctors follow up, n a family lunchdate, us with another of his friends on sunday...i'll be off n on n i'll be seeing ya's...if i'm not in 2 feel free to message me..l8ters t8ters...oh n dr. gates has said lisas dropped earlier than he expected so the video camera is ready for lack of father n i'm on standby...gawd i hope she makes it til her shower at least, thats the 24th of this month...sheesh...lol..kk i'm off like yesterdays underwear (iffen i wore em)...lol..

coopy

i know i know...i suck..LOL

i'm such a slacker, i'm not in denial..after i start ramblin you'll see why i took muh time...lol..so bite me.... please?...LOL

ok can i just say i'm wishing for may already?..lol...jus cuz every furkin day seems to be "aprils fools" to timmy,LOL..the kid says it constantly!!!...i keep tellin him april fools is done but he's not listenin,lol...on sunday he says mom look over there at the monkey...so i'm lookin (i mean come on i have 4 kids all kinds of toys (childrens) all ova da house)...so i'm lookin around..n i'm gettin frustrated cuz i'm not seein it...then i say ok timmy where?..he smiles that half crooked smile, bats his long eyelashes n then screams at me "aprils fools mom".....all da while da movie stars crackin up at me...BASTARD,lol...

on thursday at like 1 pm, da school nurse calls n my immediate reaction was "which one do ya have?",lol...she says chris is here n he has an earache..grrr...i tell her i'll pack up the ducklings n be right there, call da doctors n they say ok come right down, call da movie star n get him ready for the prescription dropoff n he says "wut bout alex?"......i hadda get alex out early too cuz i knew i wouldn't be home in time n that kind of trauma would be like 60 years of therapy,lol..so we all head down to the docs, yup ear infection, drop off da prescription at da hubbys work aka grease monkeys anonymous,lol..then headed home...sooooo much stress crammed into a timeframe of an hour and a half!!!...no wonder i had stomach pains all day friday n saturday..that scared me but i'm k, they subsided...

saturday having those pains put me on da couch most of da day, woohoo lifetime chick flicks,lol while da movie star took all 4 out to play as he installed muh 10 disc changer (6 of which are tim )..saturday night movie star took the bigger boys to a truck n car show (they got to sit in a hummer..um woohoo?,lol)...n while they were out timmy relapsed on dat thing i thought we conquered , i bugged maybe not da right thing to do but i felt da stress buildin, made da movie star come home...n we dealt..then when the house had calmed down n we put everyone to bed...timmy realizes "junior" is missing yet again ..."junior" is the tie dyed pastel type seahorse beanie baby that i believe was a happy meal toy at one point...this furkin seahorse has been stretched out so he is abnormally larger than yer average garden variety seahorse, LOL...n he HAS to be in bed with timmy...so we searched fer "junior" fer about 30 minutes then found him in between the matress n the bed ...with "junior" securely in place all was a go for bedtime...I LOVE BEDTIME!!!!, LOL...

my candle party turned out really really good, i have like 300 bucks in free shit comin, lol...that should keep me stocked til the fall party.....mom n lisa came nuttin really new there...no good gossip...n chris' lil friend devin (who i swear if had an orange face n bright green hair would look like an oompa loompa,LOL) w/ his mom...the kids all played while the scents of many candles burnin gave gary a headache,lol...tff...then devins mom took alex n chris up to their house for awhile to play, was a nice break...

monday, i got up all set to get timmy n cakie ready fer da movie...(which btw i was outnumbered on choosing, damn scobby doo2,lol)...so i get em bathed n its like 15 minutes before we leave the house..school nurse calls , chris has a tummy ache ...i'm like tellin her wut i'm up to n wonderin if that could be the reason...chris gets on the phone n i tell him to hold out n see if after he eats lunch if he still feels yucky...kk no prob give her my cell number n she can call if she needs me..as i park da sweet pickles van in da theatre parkin lot cell rings ...its her again he's back in da office complainin......i'm like ok look i'm here n i can't back out now, he'll have to lay it out on the bed there i'll get him in 2 hours..., was dat bad?..so we get into da theatre n 24 bucks later, we're sittin down, cakies in awe bein her first movie n me bein all sappy tearin up watchin her was just too much,lol..imma goof, ya knew dat,lol...the movie was good, better than the first in my opinion but scarier monsters, cakie stayed in muh lap oh bout da whole movie...n timmy was only scared once...when they kicked da monsters butts in da end timmy was cheerin n stuff...i teared up again..i'm so sappy,lol..when da movie was ova, we took off fer school, with about 30 minutes of the school day left i grabbed chris (from his class not the nurses office ), n went home to get timmy ready fer his 1 year folow up appt to his ear surgery......movie star took him...well peeps get ready fer me to start freakin, another ear infection n talk that he'll have another surgery in a month ...stress level overload...but u know me i'll try pushin it off til last minute...sooo wiff dat bein said, after da docs gary took him to get a haircut with him..went to a habib kinda guy...reg place wasn't open,lol..no choice...so gary tells me the guy had him hold timmys head while he got around his ears...the guys cuttin, garys holdin...timmy looks at gary n says.."dad yer a pain in my ass" lmao...it's amazingly even funnier cuz the habib had no clue what he said speaking no english n laffed at him..LOL...too funny..

last night was muh dress fittin fer my friends wedding...first time i've seen the dress in a year..still pretty, lol..the color tho is gonna make me hafta dye da hair medium brownish, tis k tho i can handle it fer dat, who knows i may even keep it...we get to this womans house who is doing the alterations, n i realize this is one of those times i shoulda worn panties ...this room is the size of an outhouse,lol, n theres like 4 kids n 4 adults huddled around..at my turn everyone got out wiff da door open n muh best friend slidin da dress ova muh head i wiggled outta muh pants...woman has to take like 8 inches off da damn dress no joke, lol...it looks really good except fer muh hips...i have big hips, nice handles actually, but they stick out bein theres little um "breastmeat" had to MA...so i'm da curvy one...lol...another chick has big thighs n no kids so i still look good ...anywho, the dress is fitted, muh shoes are off to be dyed, i just need da beauty treatments closer to da day,lol...n gotta convince da hubby to go now cuz i need a ride, lmaooo...

ok n da icing on da coopy mail cake?..i got caught AGAIN...@ me n muh damn mouth...lmao..da movie star seems to think it's damn funny, i'm not sure wut i think cept dammit AGAIN?...lol...yes living room again, figured it was safe cuz it was later than normal..nope...through the vent..that FURKIN vent, ya hear alex say.."is that mom huffin n puffin?"...HUFFIN N PUFFIN?...fer da love......yes gary says, she's ok...deed is so over,lol...he's laffin, i'm laffin in total embarassment, i go sit at the puter, which is in front of the vent...n garys like better tell him yer ok....so i turn around n say...loudly.."i'm done huffin n puffin n blowin da house down"...lol...he backs up from da vent n says.."haha i heard dat funny mom"...furkin brat,lol...gawd i can't win,lol...but hey, it was good...n good again later, huffin n puffin after he was asleep,lol......musta been good too cuz da tooth fairy forgot to come last night for chris tooth that fell out yesterday,lmao...poor kids we so suck at tooth fairy,lol...tonights another night,lol..to forget...

ok ok i think i've filled ya'll with enuff mental pics to last ya..i'll try not slackin next week but kids are on vacation too ...can i scream yet?...SHUP!!,lol...l8ters t8ters..n happy easter everyone..NO i'm having ham!!!!, LOL...family will be ova tho,lol...who knows wut might happen...

coopy