ok here goes...

ok i figure while phil is in the room being his usual idiot self, i'll do my post now..alot has happened since i last posted, on thursday we took timmy to the specialist, kinda knowin he would be gettin tubes for his ears...well i was thrown when we found out the cause was some infection he has had for awhile, no one else diagnosed it..and he needs a lil more in depth surgery...15 minutes including the tubes, but deeper anethesia and iv's and stuff....i know it is all for the best but i'm scared to death, just bear with me for a couple months til we're past this...it just kills me to think about it . a couple of you know whats going on and i thank you for letting me vent and break down...i know he isn't gonna read this but between my ups and downs...tox has been so wonderful just listening and reassuring me that everything will be ok...and i do know it will i just feel helpless, guilty for not pressuring the doctors, all that stuff...k i'm stoppin before i cry....

k...give me one sec...gonna find the coopy yall know. i should say too that tuesday i have another one goin under...chris needs 2 baby root canals...somehow i'm not freaking out about that as much...maybe because i know the dentist a lil more than this guy who will be taking care of my lil guy...k i'm done i'm done, no more bad stuff. i need more glitter in my life i'm thinkin....hell i would take anything they threw at me just to get away from this stress.

heyyyyyyyy there is a light at the end of the tunnel....tim is coming march 31st...omg i near died when i found out...honestly i fell outta my chair it came in an email,lol. like the obsessed fan that i am i joined his fan club so i can preorder tickets...hey 20 bucks a year...they throw in a pic,lol.

what the hell else can i say?..i'm tryin here i really am...uh well besides that stuff i can't think....house has been kinda boring, kinda like the room, although i gotta say a couple nights last week were like old times it was great i hope for more....i'll need the fun to get me away from my mind. ....chat drama...well i'm kinda in a daze here so forgive me if i miss something, as for drama in my chat life...well i'll just continue to laugh at that one, uhhuh you know, but i have more important issues, but hey i need the distraction feel free to hop in my box and gossip or vent away,lol...

see i didn't mean for this to be long but i ramble...and i honestly can't think of what to ramble on about now so i'll go, see yall in the room...

definitely da stressed out mommy,

coopy